To friends of the past:
I have friends out there that have turned their backs on me, made statements about how I was evil, rude, crude, and abrupt. You sometimes walked away when I needed you as my friends the most. If I ever offended you, hurt your feelings or made you feel bad in anyway, I apologize and ask you to forgive me.
There were times when I confessed my soul to you, told you of issues only to have you stab me in the back and turn away or side with others against me. I was made to feel stupid, and that I was in the wrong especially when I was ask to call each member of a department and apologize. Some of you as friends were my bosses which made it even more difficult. What I learned from you is that even friends/bosses/managers cannot be trusted, but I forgive you.
I am trying hard to forgive and forget. I truly want to move forward in my life, and as long as I harbor these feelings I know I can’t.
This is my first attempt at seeking those of you out that I feel hurt me, made me feel unwanted, unloved, and not worthy. Some times what others perceive as being mean or sarcastic is actually a cry for help.
I still find it hard to forget as the past has a way of coming back at the wrong time, but that is the devil’s way of retaining control of our sinful nature. I may have to start over each and every day from this day forward, but I know that God is always by my side. I’m hoping that my true friends will come forward and accept my apology. I am hopeful that I do still have a few true friends out there, those that stand beside you no matter what, always have your back, and will always take your call no matter what time of night or day it is.
I love you all.
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