Recovery: Need A Sponsor

Although I haven't been attending the meetings at church for the last month, I have been working through my first book of the Celebrate Recovery work books.  I just finished the first book and have completed Principle 3.  I have picked up the second book and have read the first page of the first lesson three times.  In this book, it says I must have a sponsor, someone who will hold me accountable but it must be someone I can trust.

Trust, that is a major word for me.  Trusting people is one of the issues I have, and still have although I'm trying to learn to trust other people.  I know God is always there with me and I trust Him.  The last few weeks working through the book, I have questioned my salvation.  I wasn't really sure I had asked Jesus to live in my heart and be a part of my life.  It didn't feel like it some days and then other days, I knew God was there, but God is always there.  Taking these first steps in Recovery, I've learned two things for sure. 
One, that I cannot fix the hurts, hangups, habits, addictive behavior or compulsive behavior alone.  Jesus has to do that or help me to do it.  Second, I have no control over my life, but God does and I have given Him that control. 

I pray every morning now and write in my journal.  When I pray, I write.  It's like writing a letter to God.  I just save the postage.  Anyway, my search for a sponsor has started.  Someone suggested I interview a few people from church, but if I have to share my deepest darkest secrets, do I want someone from my church?  I don't know that I really want a stranger, but I have to trust this person to keep what I'm telling them to themselves?  Here is the trust issue.  What will I do?  Where will I find my sponsor?  I'm sure God will lead me to the person that needs to be my accountability partner. 

Live one day at a time.  You cannot change the past, and the future is in God's hands.  Let God have control of your life and it will become a life full of joy.  Have a God Filled Day.